Thursday, April 30, 2015

I'm Scared

Yes, I know. I said Friday was going to be my posting day here on Trendy Edgy Chic and it is. Tomorrow we’re taking a look at what I got at the Sephora VIB Rouge Sale a few weeks ago, so definitely stop by if you’re interested in that. But today, I just felt like writing and getting some of my feelings out.

I’m scared.

I mentioned in my welcome post that I’ve had some issues since turning 25. Damn you stupid, changing body. I’ve been on birth control to help fix some of my new-found, really-fun problems, but it wasn’t really effective until I stopped taking my placebos. BUT, I am supposed to take the placebos every three months to give my body a hormone break.

Here’s the thing: my body likes hormones. I remember my pre-hormone days and I’m scared. I know it’s only four days, but I don’t know what my body is going to do during this time. This is the first time I’ve been on placebos since my doctor told me to only take them every three months and the not-knowing is part of what’s freaking me out. 

Is my skin going to freak out again? Am I going to cry over little things that literally don’t matter at all? Is my tummy going to hurt? I don’t know. And to be honest, I don’t really want to know. I want to stay on a continual string of hormones from now until forever because they make me feel better. This is something I thought I’d never say before I turned 25, but there it is.

If you’re feeling a little lost because we’re just jumping in at the middle of my feeling crappy journey, don’t worry. I am going to do a whole post about my body after 25 later on where I go through all the symptoms and treatments, but for now I just needed a place to say “I’m scared.”

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