Friday, August 28, 2015

10 Things I'm Grateful For



I need a little positivity in my life at the moment. What better way than to discuss 10 things I'm grateful for. 10 things that I'm happy to have in my life. 10 things that will make me smile. So, here we go . . .

I am Loved


This one sounds so simple and so basic, but it's the most important when you're feeling down. I know I'm lucky here because not everyone feels loved or has a family. I do and I'm thankful for that.

I am Secure


I graduated with my BA in 2010. The market crashed in 2008. This means that I know plenty of people who had difficulty finding jobs in their field. It's kind of crazy that you can spend so much money on a degree, and at the end be unable to find a position that you've spent four years studying for. I was lucky that I had internships before I started looking for something full time - not everyone gets a chance to have that experience. And I'm lucky that I was able to find something in my field. It's easy to forget that in the hustle of day to day life.

I'm Still Growing


I used to think that a certain point you are who you are and that doesn't change. I still do believe that's true to a certain extent, but I'm surprised by how much I've grown since college. Maybe "grown" isn't the right word, but my feelings and attitudes towards certain situations has changed. I think I'm more accepting and sympathetic. I think I'm more understanding of the opportunities I've had in my life and more appreciative of them. I get that life isn't as nice to others. I think I have a better perspective on the world than when I was surrounded by other children who had parents taking care of them.

I Have Two Parents


Some people don't have parents and I have two. What a normal-seeming thing. It might not be that normal though. Plenty of people only have one parent (especially if they're older and have lost one). Some people don't even have that, though.

I Knew All of my Grandparents


Growing up, people would find it a little odd that all of my grandparents were living. My parents had me when they were pretty young (my mom was 20, my dad was 23) and I don't think my mom's parents were very old when they had her (probably in their 20s). My dad's parents were older (in their 30s). But most of my friends have grandparents that are at least 10 years older than mine, sometimes 20. I no longer have all of my grandparents with me (only 3), but I think that I got to meet them all because they were younger when they started reproducing. Odd way to put it, but truthful.

I'm not close with all of them, but they've all shown me love and support throughout the years. My grandpa, in particular, has taught me so much about managing money, other cultures, and has just been able to provide me with a really cool perspective on various things because he grew up in a completely different culture and has seen a lot of the world.

My Husband is Supportive


I'm not on my own. I don't mean that because I'm married. I mean that because I have seen so many people of my mom's generation have sole responsibility for their children and for their household. For cooking and cleaning and in a lot of cases, still working. For doing all the school drop offs and pick ups. That is not at all what I want from my life or my relationship. We both clean, we both cook, we both work.

And that's not the only way my husband supports me. If I'm having a really bad day, I might get a surprise latte (that's a big deal because my husband does not like Starbucks - doesn't want to be there, doesn't want to order anything, doesn't like coffee, doesn't like figuring out the mysterious Starbucks language). And with all those things in mind, he still manages to get my order right. Impressed!

He's also supportive of my dreams and believes I can achieve what I set out to. In moments when I get down on myself or am being hard on myself, not only is it nice to have someone that believes in me, but it's also kind of essential.

I've Traveled


I've gotten to see a lot of cool places. That's not something I've ever taken for granted. I had plenty of friends growing up who didn't get to do teen tours or go on family vacations. I love traveling though and I love exploring, and having that exposure to the world at a young age is also why I love to travel. So thank you Mommy for rising to the occasion of finding a shopping camp in Paris - or at least a way for me to go shopping in Paris and thank you Daddy for sending me. I'm not going to say it makes me spoiled (although I kinda was. Ok, kinda am), but I think spoiled is not appreciating what you have. And I do appreciate it.

I Have Siblings


Some people don't get this one. I'm not sure if it's because they don't have siblings or because they're not close with them, but one think I've always been thankful for is my two sisters and my brother. No one will ever really get you or understand you the way your siblings do. They were there for basically your entire your life. They've gone through the same things you have—losing a grandparent, watching your parents fight, traveling to the same places. They've watched all of your relationships form: boyfriends/girlfriends, friendships, teachers that mean a lot to you. They got to see it all and experienced it along with you. They're never leaving (barring a crazy fall out or death). They'll see all of the special moments, they make you feel better when you're sad, and they're happy for you when things go well. No matter how good of a friend you have, it still won't ever really reach that sibling level (but it might come pretty freakin close, if you are lucky).

I'm Uncomfortable 


There's some saying about needing to be uncomfortable so that you can grow. I'm not sure exactly how it goes or who said it, but it's true. I'm happy to say that I'm uncomfortable and have been for the past year or so in my YouTube career. I've taught myself to be more outgoing and make friends (online anyway), I've learned a little bit about lighting, I've massively improved my editing skills (color correction, transitions, audio controls), and now I'm about to get a fancy camera and learn how to actually use it! I've always wanted to and I actually did take a photography class in high school, but I don't think I got much out of it. By the end of the class I still felt like I was in a point and shoot mood. Here's to learning things and acquiring new skills!

The Internet


Some people would laugh at this. As someone reading this blog, I'm sure you're not one of them. Yes, I am grateful for the ability to look things up easily on my phone: an actress I can't place, finding a good restaurant, and of course settling an argument. I'm grateful for all of the knowledge I have at my fingertips and for the ability to learn anything I want to. But the Internet has really helped me find who I am. I didn't really know what I was good at (other than school) or what I was passionate about (other than reading) until I started blogging/vlogging.

Now I know that I'm creative. I never really thought of myself that way before, but I love coming up with new ideas and sharing them with people. I love thinking of out of the box ways to incorporate books into life (fairytale fashions, recipes, and even travel).

Now I know that I love writing (if it's not for class) and I love making videos. I know that I can teach myself things that always seemed like a crazy mystery: code, iMovie, and soon the DSLR. I know that I love design and making things look pretty. I know that I can build a blog and figure out how to set up and manage a website. I have much more confidence in myself and my abilities and who I am in general. That's kind of priceless, so thank you Internet and whoever invented you.


P.S. If you liked this post, you might want to check out 15 of my Favorite Feelings



Friday, August 14, 2015

Weekend Update!

Instead of doing a video this week, I'm just going to tell you guys what I'll be up to this weekend! My grandpa, dad, and brother came to visit me yesterday and they'll be here until Saturday morning. It's a short trip, but I'm so happy they're here!

Source: Wikipedia

No big plans in that area since my dad doesn't really want to drive anywhere, but I am going to see if I can talk them into a Garden of the Gods trip or maybe going to the pool. Sitting around can get pretty boring. Unless I'm reading, which I won't be.

After they go, Kevin and I are going up to Boulder and spending a night at his parents. Our favorite breakfast spot on Pearl Street closed down, so I'm going to see if I can find an awesome replacement. wish me luck!

What will you be up to this weekend?